Why do I do this?

So today was the first episode of the Biggest Loser. I love that show. I have watched it for a few years now and I always say I am going to do that. And than I sit a=on the sofa watching them workout, all the while eating to my hearts content. I am not hungry but I find myself going into the kitchen as if something in there will fill "that hole". What do I need to fill "that hole"? I don't know but I know that it is not in the kitchen. With Ben gone as much as he is I get lonely, and so I find comfort in kitchen. I am not sure what to do about it but I am going to find it out.....

9 months and counting....

My little girl is 9 months old! She is getting so big. Yesterday before church I got a few pic of my little girl.









And of Thomas wanted in on the action too. So here is my little man.

I'm the mom....

When did that happen? Don't get me wrong I love being a mom, but some days I still can't believe I am the mom. I have two great kids and we are "working" on a 3. I spend all day and night with my kidos and they have become very attached. I have only left Adelaide a hand full of times with Kimber (who we miss terrible). Ben wants to be able to spend time with them witch I get but I need a brake now and then. Oh how I want a really date night with out kids. I find myself telling Thomas when trying to get him to do something he doesn't want to do that I am the mom. Just do what I say and stop telling me no! By the end of the night I am just done being the mom.
Ben is gone a lot. Between school, work, and training for his new job he is never home so now I feel like a single mom. I have been dropping Ben off at school and picking him up giving our family about an hour of time to be together (in the van) Our few hours between school and work Ben gets in a nap or homework, and at some time between 2am and 4am he sneaks into bed with me for a few hours of sleep. My poor hubby. How blessed am I to have a husband that is willing to go threw all of that to make our family's life better. On Monday I will get my hubby back for bedtime and I can't wait. But for the rest of the week I will be the mom and snuggle with my hubby when I can.